Ultrasound Day: A Roller Coaster Ride with a Major Twist

What a day!!

Two of the things that I never ever wanted to hear my doctor say:

"My suspicions are that it is either:
1) a blighted ovum or
2) an ectopic pregnancy"

So here's what happened:
I went to my new Dr. this morning to get my first ultrasound. The tech assured me that at this early in the game we would probably see nothing. (I'm only around 5 weeks, 1 or 2 days). And she was right. She saw...nothing. No gestational sac. Only enlarged uterus, thickened endometrium. Good. But not a sac. Good. But not a teeny tiny baby. I was very disappointed & scared.

So even though I'm not very far enough along, by this point my HCG should be high enough to see something according to my Dr's calculations (since it was 1149 one week ago). So he became concerned & suspicious that things were not as they should be.

He explained what an ectopic would mean...an injection of a scary sounding drug or surgery. A blighted ovum would mean miscarriage. But before any decision was made he wanted to check my HCG stat to give a clue as to what's going on.

The 2 hours I waited for the results were agonizing. I wept buckets of tears. I went through a roller coaster of emotions from depression to heartbreak to numbness. I couldn't understand why or how this could be happening to me again.

When I returned to the office, I found out that my HCG level is over 12,500. After that high of a number, my doctor didn't think it was a blighted ovum. He thought it was most likely an ectopic pregnancy. But he seemed puzzled.... Why wasn't I in pain? An ectopic pregnancy is usually very painful, and with an HCG of 12,500, I should already be in a lot of pain or at least have abdominal tenderness or bleeding. He poked around on my belly... Nothing. No pain. No tenderness. He'd also checked my blood level to make sure I wasn't losing any blood internally. It was normal.

I asked if he could call my fertility doctor for a 2nd opinion. He was more than happy to do so. He left the room, and I could hear him talking through the door. He was on the phone with my fertility clinic. Suddenly I heard him say something that was startling... He said,

"You think it's twins??!"

So there I was sitting with Jay in the exam room wondering what in the world is going on!??!! What does this mean??

My doctor came back in the room a few minutes later with a smile on his face. "They think you're carrying twins or multiples," he tells me. He goes on to say that that would explain it. I'm only around 5 weeks pregnant, so it's normal for nothing to show up on ultrasound. And my HCG is so high b/c I have more than one baby in there.

I can't even describe the relief I felt.... And my doctor was smiling & saying, "I don't know if you knew this, but I was so puzzled over this case. I never thought about the possibility of twins!"

HOWEVER, and this is a big however, he explained that there is still a chance of it being an ectopic pregnancy. He gave me his cell phone number to call this weekend if I have pain or bleeding. I'll return to his office Tuesday for a repeat ultrasound. He said that by then we should be able to see something.

I'm praying praying praying that they're right!!!!!!!!!!! Please, Lord, let it be!!!!

God is SO good!!! Please keep praying for me, my friends!

God bless you all!

I'm so totally worn out and drained that I can't write another sentence. Good night!