Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Sweet Baby

I am LOVING being a mom to this sweet baby!! I have found my calling through foster care - to be a mom! :)

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

No Double Pink Line but a Baby Anyway!

Yesterday around 9 a.m. I got a phone call from our social worker:

Birdie, this is A. We've got a newborn baby boy. He's 6 days old. I don't want to get your hopes up, and I don't want to say that it's going to be an adoption, BUT it looks like this could lead to adoption. Would you be able to take him?

I say YES. But let me call Jay first just to make sure.

Well, it doesn't take a scientist to figure out that OF COURSE we said YES!!! And about 7 hours later I was sitting on my couch holding the most beautiful baby boy with a headful of jet black hair!!!

So now we have Big Guy (our 2 year old foster son) and Little Guy (our week old foster son).

Oh my, God is so good!! Of course, we don't know if we will get to adopt. Only time will tell. Will the biological mom get her act together? Will a relative who has a good home come forward? We just don't know. But what we do know is that this precious baby needed a good home, and we are going to shower him with love while he's here - for however long that may be. (And of course I'm so hoping that this baby will indeed become my son!!)

I just had to share this with y'all. And if you're interested in foster care, please feel free to email me! creek jc @ nctc. com (without all the spaces, of course!)


Sunday, December 19, 2010

Testing Testing 1, 2, 3

Yep, it's almost that time again. Time to break out the pregnancy tests and look for that double pink line.

In fact, I've already been testing even though I knew it was too early. Do y'all do that too? You know it's going to be negative b/c it's too early but you just can't help yourself? I've already wasted several tests this week.

I'll keep y'all posted.

Big Guy was also in the Christmas play at church tonight. He was a shepherd and was just absolutely adorable.

I hope y'all are enjoying this Christmas season. I'm so thankful for Jesus!! He is my everything!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Missing Baby Girl

I know that Jay probably hates this picture! ha! It's not one of his best, but it's the only one I have of Baby Girl that doesn't show her face. As I've talked about before, Jay & I are foster parents. For one blessed week Baby Girl was with us until she went back to her family.

Only one week, and I still think about her every day and miss her. She was in that cuddly stage where I just wanted to squeeze her and cuddle her, especially when she was wearing a little one-piece sleeper!! :)

I just keep trusting the Lord. I want to be a mom! And I know I'm a foster mom. And I'm so happy to be a foster mom to Big Guy and to have been a foster mom to Baby Girl. And I want to keep fostering and being there for these precious little ones who need a good home. But I do have a deep desire to be a mom someday, a mom to a child that God will give me on this earth to not have to say goodbye to after a few months.

And I have faith that He will! His timing is not my timing, and so I wait patiently knowing that He knows exactly what He's doing! And it's all going to be worth it.

I've been mulling around a future post about my 3rd miscarriage. I've already posted about my 1st and 2nd. I know the next post is coming soon. It's just a matter of sitting down & taking the time to write it. But I don't want it to be a sad or depressing thing for you. I just want it to let you know that I understand what you've been through. I've been there too. Or if you've never had a miscarriage, I hope that it might help you know how to be there for your friend who is going through it.

In the meantime, I want to say again how WONDERFUL it is to be a foster mom to our Big Guy. We are madly in love with him. I can't bear to think about him leaving right now. I'm trying to enjoy these next few weeks and cherish every moment! I'm also praying that his mom will allow us to continue to be a part of his life. Would you help me pray too?

I hope you all are doing wonderfully and enjoying this Christmas season!

creek jc @ nctc. com

Thursday, December 9, 2010

That Terrible Feeling

You know that terrible feeling when you hear that a lab result is not normal? Or that awful feeling every time the phone rings when you are waiting to hear from your doctor?

Yeah, I had it this week.

If you remember, a couple of weeks ago I found out that my Factor ii activity level was low. Of course, I foolishly researched it on the internet. (I don't recommend doing this!!) I found out things that can cause this - a clotting disorder present since birth that causes your blood to be too thin, severe liver disease and other terrible possibilities.

Immediately, I got hot and felt sick....

Fast forward a couple of days.

I talked to my RE's nurse who told me that my liver enzymes were normal and that the lab was only slightly low. Normal, I think, starts at 75. Mine was 73.

Okay, not so bad after all. Not as bad as I'd feared.

So I went to have my DNA checked to see if I had a mutation causing the abnormality.

I waited for the phone call on Tuesday that would give me the result. I was almost sick. Every time the phone rang I ran to get it. I was distracted. My stomach was filled with butterflies.

Basically, I was needing a vacation VERY BADLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes I want to just "get away from it all!" I daydream of being in a tropical location with hubby or maybe walking the streets of a romantic city in Italy or driving through the countryside of England.

But alas, our bank account won't allow for that! ha!

So I waited and finally found out yesterday that my DNA is normal!! Great news! But that means we still don't know why that lab was a little low.

And I'm to the point where I really don't even want to know anymore! I'm SO over blood work and tests, and I'm thinking, "Okay, maybe my blood is just slightly thinner than every one else's. Whoop-ti-doo! No more tests!!!!"

For anyone who reads my blog, you know that my foundation is Christ. He sustains me. So I'm doing my best to give all this to Him, trust Him and just keep on truckin'!

I'm still madly in love with our Big Guy (our sweet 2 year old foster child). He is such a huge blessing to us!!!! These last few months, he has helped me so much. He's given me a new perspective, a new excitement for life and a greater purpose. Yes, fostering is to help the children. But we are the ones who are getting blessed too.

I hope you're all doing wonderfully!!! I often pray for you, my blog friends!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Baby Girl

Sweet Baby Girl left us after one week. I was already totally in love with her, and it was so hard to let her go. But that is fostering. And I know that we gave her a loving home for one week when she needed it most. I still pray for her daily and think about her so much.

For one blessed week I had a baby. It was so much hard work. I was exhausted. But it was just heavenly!! It was worth it all!

Big Guy is still doing wonderfully. We are totally in love with him.

As far as having a biological child, it could happen any time. I'm excited and very nervous all at the same time. After 4 miscarriages & 3 surgeries, I still have hope. Could this next one be the one?? I pray so.