Missing Baby Girl

I know that Jay probably hates this picture! ha! It's not one of his best, but it's the only one I have of Baby Girl that doesn't show her face. As I've talked about before, Jay & I are foster parents. For one blessed week Baby Girl was with us until she went back to her family.

Only one week, and I still think about her every day and miss her. She was in that cuddly stage where I just wanted to squeeze her and cuddle her, especially when she was wearing a little one-piece sleeper!! :)

I just keep trusting the Lord. I want to be a mom! And I know I'm a foster mom. And I'm so happy to be a foster mom to Big Guy and to have been a foster mom to Baby Girl. And I want to keep fostering and being there for these precious little ones who need a good home. But I do have a deep desire to be a mom someday, a mom to a child that God will give me on this earth to not have to say goodbye to after a few months.

And I have faith that He will! His timing is not my timing, and so I wait patiently knowing that He knows exactly what He's doing! And it's all going to be worth it.

I've been mulling around a future post about my 3rd miscarriage. I've already posted about my 1st and 2nd. I know the next post is coming soon. It's just a matter of sitting down & taking the time to write it. But I don't want it to be a sad or depressing thing for you. I just want it to let you know that I understand what you've been through. I've been there too. Or if you've never had a miscarriage, I hope that it might help you know how to be there for your friend who is going through it.

In the meantime, I want to say again how WONDERFUL it is to be a foster mom to our Big Guy. We are madly in love with him. I can't bear to think about him leaving right now. I'm trying to enjoy these next few weeks and cherish every moment! I'm also praying that his mom will allow us to continue to be a part of his life. Would you help me pray too?

I hope you all are doing wonderfully and enjoying this Christmas season!

creek jc @ nctc. com