Today the weather was beautiful here in southern KY. I also enjoyed making apple butter at my parents' house. It turned out really yummy!
I had some extra left over and not enough jars, so I'm thinking of using it for a pie filling. Maybe I'll do that tonight.
My post-op appointment is tomorrow. I don't have to go all the way back to Memphis for that. I'll just go to my ob/gyn. But just thinking of going to that office makes my stomach feel nervous. But it's just something I've got to do.
After you had your miscarriages, did any of you just feel like you needed to get away??
Sometimes it's hard for me b/c even the ring of my cell phone reminds me of my doctor's office calling. When it rings I get a funny feeling in my stomach. Some places or certain situations remind me of bad feelings.
Sometimes I feel like I need a break from it all for just a little while to reprogram my mind not to associate so many things with negative emotions.
I'm so thankful today that my God is the Lord God my Healer and that by His stripes I am healed!! Thank You, Father!
God Bless You All. I hope you're doing wonderfully! I often pray for you.
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Oh my, I've totally needed to 'get away' from it all a bunch of times along my journey (2 m/c's, fibroids, being told my uterus is 'deformed', abnormal pap results). I've sometimes worried I'm a runner like Kate on Lost. That I'd rather run away than deal with things. I don't think that's the case, I just need breaks.
Last March I took a week of holidays, drove 2 hours to the train station & took a 14 hour train ride to Chicago where I hung out for 4 days by myself. It was amazing. I loved it.
That was my biggest 'get away'. Littler get aways have been a secluded weekend in, a weekend at a cabin, a cycle without TTCing, a drunken night, etc. We've gotta do what we can to keep our lives relatively normal. Oh yeah, and as sane as possible.
Yes, definitely! It was after our fourth m/c that my husband and I decided, rather suddenly, that we NEEDED to get away. We quickly planned a trip to New England (in October, something we'd always wanted to do!) and it was perfect and just what we needed. No chores, no phone calls, no sympathetic looks from people around us, just the two of us together in a beautiful location. It really did help us cope.
That was the start of our travels. Before that we hadn't been on any big trips since our honeymoon. Over the next few years we tried to take a trip every year (big or small, whatever we could afford) and we made some very special memories during those very difficult years while we continued to struggle with miscarriage.
I encourage you to do it! You won't regret it!
Thanks so much for your comments. It helps so much just to know that someone else understands!
Thankfully we have a beach vacation coming up pretty soon. It's our first vacation in over a year.
Since our last vacation I've had 2 miscarriages & 3 surgeries, so this is a VERY welcome get away!!!!!!
Thanks again for your comments. It means so much!
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