Monday, July 26, 2010

Surgery Scheduled

So today I got a call on my cell phone from the RPL specialist's office in Memphis. They've already set up my surgery date for August. When the lady is telling me this, I'm feeling very uncertain. Last week when I met with the doctor for the first time he said that he wanted to get some of my labs back and also review my HSG films and other info that hadn't arrived yet from my other doctors. Then he would make a decision about the surgery.

So does that mean that he already reviewed them all and has definitely decided that I need the surgery? I mean, I don't want this hysteroscopy done unless he's really sure I need it!!

I told the lady that I would like to talk to the doctor if possible so that he can explain to me his interpretation of the films and why he does think I need the surgery.

So hopefully he will call in a day or two!

I've been struggling a lot lately with fear. I've always been a healthy person until all of these miscarriages. Now the devil is trying to use it against me and tell me that something is very badly wrong with me and that there is some terrible disease somewhere in my body. I'm constantly feeling every lump, bump, ache & pain and worrying over whether or not something is terribly wrong somewhere.

I pray about it all throughout the day. I don't want to live like this. And I know I don't have to because God has not given me a spirit of fear. Please do help me pray that I'll get victory over this and not be afflicted by it any longer. It's stealing my joy, and I hate it. I have so much to be joyful over and thankful for. I want to live each moment to the fullest!

I hope you all are doing well & having a great day!

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5 comments:

Dan & Hillary said...

I will begin to pray peace over you and that the fear that binds you would be removed. It is very difficult to relax and be calm during these times. Don't believe that the m/c's are your fault. They're not. Job was righteous before God and he still struggled with loss. Love to you, my friend. Don't give up hope.

Surely said...

Hello...I just found your blog today. OMG. we have too many things in common. 4 miscarriages. scheduled for hysteroscopic surgery. 30ish. loving Jesus and not letting RPL become bigger than God. My surgery is on Friday...I'll let you know how it goes!

Birdie said...

Surely, do you have a blog? If so, I would LOVE to read it!!! Please let me know how your surgery goes!!

Stacey said...

Praying you through this time in your journey. Don't let that fear take root! You are doing a wise thing by being proactive with your health and doing what you can to improve your fertility. Keep your chin up and know that God is walking with you and you have people cheering you on every step of the way.

Surely said...

Hi Birdie! I don't know why my profile doesn't show. I'll try to fix that. My blog is:
www.familygoodnessandmercy.blogspot.com

I posted about my surgery there. Let me know if you have any questions.
=) I'm pleased to meet you. =)

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