Thursday, January 27, 2011

His Grace is Sufficient

Thank you Thank you Thank you!! I really appreciate all of your helpful comments on my last post. I am going to check into these tips! Thankfully, his face is getting much better after using hydrocortisone and aquaphor. But I'm trying to research as much as possible and figure out ways to help keep this under control! I am especially interested in natural approaches.

Speaking of Little Guy.... For those of you who don't know, he is our little 1 month old foster baby. I am desperately in love with him! After 4 miscarriages and wanting a baby for so long now, it's tempting for me to think that he is MY baby. But, as much as it pains me to say it, he's not. He's not adopted. He's in my care, but he's not mine.

On Tuesday it hit me: He could leave us. And boy, it was like a punch in the stomach.

It would be very easy for me to get overwhelmed by this. It would be easy for me to let my mind dwell on the fact that he may leave me. But I am trusting God with all my heart, knowing that He is in control. And I'm praying every day that the right thing for the baby would be done. God sees the future, and I'm petitioning daily on behalf of this precious little one.

It's tough being a foster mom. Not only do we have Little Guy, but we also have Big Guy. He's our precious almost 3 year old. We love him so much. He is likely going home next month, and he has been with us for 5 months. What will I do the day he leaves? I imagine it being filled with tears. And to be honest, I just can't even go there in my mind right now. But I know, without a doubt, that God is going to be there with me. And I know that we've done what He asked us to do.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness." 2 Corinthians 12:9. Yes, Lord, I'm weak, but You're strong. And You're going to help me through.

In the meantime, if you're thinking of fostering or adopting, please don't let fear paralyze you. There are so many children out there who need us!


Just Believing said...

Your amazing! I love how God has placed these 2 precious lives with you ! You will always be such a special part of their story and I feel honored to read about it!

E said...

You seem so nice and genuinly caring. I couldn't think of a better foster mother than you. I admire how you trust that everything will be okay. I need to learn from you.

Surely said...

Your guys are fortunate to have you caring for them...even if it's just a little while. Enjoy them!! :)

Lynette said...

"paralyzing fear", yup, that sounds about right. K and I are joining friends for dinner tonight, they are fostering twin 2 years olds, it will be nice to get their point of view as K and I try to sort out our options. This little guy pictured in your arms is such a sweet little thing to behold. I am Praying for you!

Angie said...

Birdie thank you for reading my story and for your sweet comment. I just saw your comment from the beginning of January. I agree, I couldn't get through this journey without the Lord, without his grace and peace. I live in Montana, and recently found out that there is one RE in my state. I had actually scheduled an appt. with him, but found out I was pregnant right before my appt., so thankfully I didn't have to go.

You have an amazing testimony of trusting God when so much is out of your control and sharing God's love and grace with your sweet boys. Very inspring! Keep trusting!

Ellen said...

Just checking to see what is going on with you and your "guys".

Birdie said...

Thank you for all of the encouraging comments!! Each and every on e means so much!

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