Wednesday, February 17, 2010

God is in Control!

Dear Specialists' Office Who is Investigating My History of Recurrent Miscarriage,

Please call me when you say you are going to. And, whoever I talked to today, please don't be short with me. I've already been through a lot and could use a little extra compassion from you if you can spare it. And please don't send me on a wild goose chase calling my primary physician then you again and back and forth. I'm sure you have a hard job and a lot to keep up with. I know that misunderstandings happen. Just please at least be really nice! Thank you.

Sincerely,
Birdie

So today and yesterday were a little difficult for me. I felt very out of control and at the mercy of the doctors' offices that I go to. Yesterday when I talked to the fertility clinic that I'll soon be going to I found out that they hadn't received any of my records from my other specialist. I thought to myself, So were you ever going to call and tell me that? If I hadn't called you to ask a question about my insurance, would you have ever even noticed that my records hadn't been faxed yet? But of course I didn't say that. I just called the specialists' office and asked them to please fax over my records.
I also asked about some of the prices for consultation, testing, etc. Yikes!!! Fertility clinics are EXPENSIVE!
And then today when I spoke to the high-risk pregnancy specialists' office who is investigating the cause for the 3 losses I've had, the person I talked to was a little short with me. And I had to make several calls to try to figure out how to get my blood work results.
So yesterday I was feeling quite overwhelmed and out of control when I got down on my knees and poured my heart out to God. I know I'm not in control. I don't want to be in control. God is. I've given my life to Him. When God reminded me of the truth that He is in control of my life and that He is my loving Father who is faithful, I felt so much peace. I turned it all over to Him, casting my cares on Him because He cares for me. (1 Peter 5:7) Thank You, Lord, for the peace you give! Thank You that even though someone was short with me, even though I felt out of control, and even though I'm facing a lot of medical bills, You have a plan. I trust You with all my heart! And even though today was a little hard, You reminded me again that You're taking care of me. I can trust You! What a wonderful Father I have!

4 comments:

Baby Wanted said...

I'm not in nursing school...I'm going to school for ultrasound! I thought about going to school for nursing but I decided to do this because I only have to deal with the same patient for no more than half an hour, lol!

I think anything medical related is hard! I have a teaching degree and that was cake compared to this!

Birdie said...

I'm a registered nurse. I work at a school and take care of special needs children. That's great that you're going to be an ultrasound technician. I think you will like only having 1 patient for a few minutes! It was very hard when I worked at the hospital and had up to 7 patients at a time. This way, you can focus all your attention on one at a time! And if they're not very nice, you'll especially love only having them for only a few minutes! lol
And I agree that anything medical is hard! Nursing school was a real challenge!!

Baby Wanted said...

LOL, I wish it was a few minutes. I will have them for 30-45 minutes and then a new one comes in! I always wanted to be a school nurse but then I became a teacher and now I'm in ultrasound.

Birdie said...

haha I guess it would seem like only a few minutes compared to a whole 12 hour shift!

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