Saturday, February 27, 2010

Foster Class #2

Today we were at our foster class all day long. That was class #2. Two down & 3 to go!! In a few months we could be foster parents, hopefully moving toward adoption!! And I still believe that God is going to bless us with biological children as well. What an exciting time to know that our journey to becoming parents is well on its way! My dream is to be a stay at home mom to a big family. I have such wonderful memories of my mom taking care of us. I remember her having a big garden, cooking wonderful suppers, sewing clothes for my dolls. She was always busy keeping our home. I felt very safe & secure as a child. I have such a longing in me to be a mom and give my children a warm, secure home. Sometimes it's a struggle for me to go to work every day when my heart yearns for something else. But I keep reminding myself that God has placed me at my job for a purpose and that I must be patient as He works out His plan. I want to honor Him in everything and trust that He knows the desires of my heart.
Tonight I'm feeling hopeful. The other night a friend at church (who also experienced 3 miscarriages and has 2 beautiful boys) smiled as we talked and with tears in her eyes said, "God's restoring your hope!" She could see it on my face & hear it in my voice. While I'm still not finished with tests and Dr. visits and everything that comes along with recurrent pregnancy loss, I have hope. I know the reality of recurrent miscarriage. But God is healing my heart & restoring my hope. And I'm so thankful for that!

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3


Stacey said...

This post is so full of hope for the future! I love it. I know it's hard to keep your eye on the prize sometimes (especially when dealing with the grief and pain of loss), but you are moving forward and that is so courageous. Can't wait to see what God will do as you continue to hope and trust in Him!

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