Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Roller Coaster

I know that I have been so terrible about updating my blog lately.

I have felt like I'm on such a roller coaster with fostering Little Guy. Last week we got wonderful news from our social worker that it was looking like we were going to get to adopt. I was SO incredibly happy and thankful!!! Then I saw her today, and her demeanor had changed. Now she is not so sure that it's going to work out for us. Last week she was very confident. Today, she called it a "shot in the dark". We go from the mountaintop to the valley just like that. I try to stay calm because I think of our baby that I'm carrying. But sometimes I can't help it when I hear the bad news and my heart pounds or I feel a hot stab through my chest and abdomen. However, God has given me a lot of peace throughout this whole experience, and I can honestly say that I'm doing well considering everything. And I'm SO thankful that I know that I am serving the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. I'm not going to get discouraged due to my circumstances. I'm going to keep looking to God!!

I go back to the doctor in about 2 weeks for an u/s to find out the sex of our baby!!! It's so hard to believe that I'm this far along!! I'm over 15 weeks!!!!!! This is nothing short of a miracle! Thank You, Lord!!

I'm STILL sick and very tired. I'm still taking zofran and phenergan but have been able to cut back some. So I believe that I'm slowly getting a little better. I still feel pretty sick and exhausted the majority of the time, though. But I'm not complaining. I'm just thankful to still be carrying this sweet baby!!

Thank you so much to those of you who are still reading my blog and sending me comments and asking about me. It really means so much!! I'm going to TRY to post more regularly b/c it does mean so much that you all pray for me and want to follow along in our journey. God Bless You All!!


Anonymous said...

Birdie, I am so sorry that you must be on this rough journey but I am thanking God that you are keeping your eyes on HIM...the only ONE that can give you pure PEACE !!!
I know how difficult it must be for you not to know what is going to happen with "little guy" but focus on the baby you are carrying so that "he" may remain healthy. "Little Guy"....whether he remains with you or nor has had what he has needed for these first few months...love, attention and knowledge of JESUS CHRIST !!! Those are things that cannot ever be taken for him...even as tiny as he is ...those traits will be ingrained in his personality.
God Bless you both for what you have done for this child!!!
Thanks for updating us.

J said...

I'm reading and praying for you...God's will can't be thwarted!!! I'm sorry you are going through such a roller coaster ride but I know in the end, nothing can change His will. Hugs!!

Sarah said...

I was happy to see a new post today! I'm thankful you are clinging to the King and not letting the enemy discourage you. You are a beautiful example of being faithful during trials - thanks!

Angie said...

Birdie, I'm sorry to hear about the sudden change with the adoption. The circumstances with my attempted adoption were so different from yours, (I never held the baby in my arms like you have for the past several months) but the whole process was the most exhausting and emotionally draining experience of my life. Roller coaster is the best description. Just keep doing all that you can do, love and care for Little Guy, take care of yourself and the baby growing inside (15 weeks, yay!), pray and trust God.

Kelly said...

I'm so sorry about the roller coaster you're on. I wish there were something more I could say.

But hey...congratulations on the 2nd tri and over 15 weeks!!!

Anonymous said...

I am so glad your pregnancy is continuing to go well! Every time I see an update on that front, it just makes me smile. So. Happy. For. You!

I am really sorry, however, to hear that things are still so up and down in regards to Little Guy's adoption. I am still praying that everything goes your way.

- Erin B.

Jenine said...

I am still praying for your Irish Twins!
God's timing is perfect. He knows what He's doing. Continue to rest in Him.

Stacey said...

Lately it's hard for me to find the time to blog/comment, but I hope you know I'm still reading! I couldn't be happier for you -- 15 weeks! Cannot wait to find out if baby birdie is a boy or a girl!

And I'm so sorry you're on such an emotional roller coaster with not knowing what will happen with Little Guy. Of course I'll continue to pray about the situation. Thinking of you often!

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