Enjoying pregnancy has been such a foreign concept to me. This is my 5th pregnancy and, as you know, the first 4 ended in miscarriage. Pregnancy always meant fear, worry, uncertainty. Most days I was on pins and needles, hoping & praying that there would be a good report from the doctor, good numbers, a good ultrasound, a happy ending.
The Lord helped me through those tough times. There were times when I would almost lose hope and consider giving up the dream of a healthy pregnancy. But I'm so glad that I stuck in there and kept pursuing answers.
Now here I am almost 25 weeks pregnant. It's really just started sinking in lately. And for the first time ever, it's actually becoming fun to be pregnant. In the past I never got far enough along to look pregnant. Now, it's unmistakable. I have the belly, the backaches, the heartburn. ha! But you know what? I'm not complaining one bit!! I absolutely love it that I finally am obviously pregnant and that I feel pregnant and that I've made it this far.
I still have some anxiety b/c I know that it would be too early at this point to have the baby if something happened. But I just holding on day by day, getting strength from the Lord and looking forward to the point where I will be able to relax and know that if I went into labor that the baby would most likely be okay.
I don't take anything for granted with this baby and pregnancy. I'm so looking forward to my labor classes! I so look forward to registering for our shower! I'm SO excited for the shower my mother-in-law, mom, and sister will be giving us. I truly feel like each day is a miracle!
I've said this a lot, but I really do hope that I help someone to have hope when they hear my story.
I also want to give a shout out to all of the women pursuing adoption!! I read several adoption blogs, and I love them! Adoption holds a special place in my heart because of my my sister. She never had biological children. After 10 years of infertility she & her husband adopted their first child - my nephew. And now they also have 2 daughters - my two little nieces. Adoption is truly a miracle, a gift from God and so exciting!! I remember the huge shower we had for my sister, all of our family who came, their dream of parenthood becoming a reality when they brought my baby nephew home from the hospital. It was beautiful!! And today, my sister tells me that she honestly feels like she didn't miss out on anything by having her children through adoption. In fact, she feels that it's such a special miracle, and she loves to share her story with others. I agree 100%. I love my nephew and nieces so much, and my life wouldn't be complete without them!
Thanks for reading my blog today! :) I hope you have a wonderful day and remember that miracles still happen!!
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